Shauns zany world

2002-04-19T11:39:00.001-07:00

just to let everyone know, ive moved to live journal the link is http://www.livejournal.com/users/jesterjade/
ill post on that one from now on. that is all

2002-04-19T11:39:00.000-07:00

just to let everyone know, ive moved to live journal the link is http://www.livejournal.com/users/jesterjade/
ill post on that one from now on. that is all

2002-04-14T04:56:00.000-07:00

hey guess what, i think i might be actually feeling happy for once!! its strange feeling, just going thru the day, not feeling shitty. dont get me wrong, i have still tons to do, (late projects and papers i still need to do eh heh heh...), but its just a lot of stress, not the depression i was in for the longest time. i guess this is how normal people feel most of the time. but yeah, i think the main reason im am happier is cuz of going to the see a therapist at school lately. its been kinda a secret for awhile cuz i didnt want to look "disturbed", but yanno fuck it. its really helping me out a lot. i really suggest people go if they are having problems. plus, its free for students!! hehe. i told some of my friends about going awhile ago, and a lot of them were really surprised that i felt so down all the time, cuz i was always laughing, and smiling. i think its my defense mechanism tho, it puts people at ease when im "happy". im not sure how much longer im going to see the shrink, i have a few more issues i need to tdeal with, but so far so good. i mean, of coarse, some things were mixed up more, but there were a lot of things that were brought to my attention that i hadnt even explored from a different perspective. well enough of that ish...today was so an arduous process. i woke up "late" because i didnt know my dad wanted to go out to eat for breakfast. i hate when he springs stuff on me last minute like that, and makes it out to be my fault that i wasnt ready on time. michelle and shane know what im talking about. I was muy contento on eating cereal. work was chock full of annoying people today. customers are pigs i swear. well i met the other new employee, lisa. shes way cool, i hope we didnt scare her off by being too sarcastic. when me and gina are closing, we can be kinda intimidating, hehe. well, you know that downward spiral i was affraid of beginnig again last week? well its well into the spiral, i think im on the 3rd level of hell by now. i still havent finished the any of my projects, or paper. but i did do well on my test, as expected. i studied on the bustrip to school. but with the rest of the stuff, i really dropped the ball. i dunno, i need to get my ass in gear, there are only like 5-4 weeks left of school, and i still have alot of stuff to do. i went out way to much during the week. i went drinking on mon., and sushi on wed., so now im broke again. argh...i talked to the guy offering me that job at that effects company. i told him that i couldnt do it right now, cuz i wanted to finish school first. but he told me that i would be like making ALOT of money if i worked there. i would get 10% on everything i design, and the average deal is millions of dollars. do the math, and for a million dollar deal, if i was the "idea man" i would get $100,000!! plus its exactly what i want to get into, effects and toy design. it sounds almost too good to be true, but heres the catch, i have to work full time which means i have to quit school, and its a new startup company, which who knows how long will last. any opinions on this matter would be greatly appreciated, i mean it. please email or IM me on your advice, because im really not sure what to do!!

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"why pay for the cow when you can get the sex for free"-brody, "mallrats"

2002-04-13T01:43:00.000-07:00

i had a good day today, yay!! well anyways, lately ive been obsessed with the new honda scooter, the metropolitan, thanks to Ariel. well today i went to go see it with my friend chuck, otherwise known as Ed norton, hehe. it was way cool, i was drooling over the swank scooter. i cant wait to get one!! even tho everyone on my family thinks im insane for wanting one. but oh yes it will be mine....well after that chuck and I hung out for the rest of the day till I had to go to work. i introduced him to boba, and the talking trashcans we had at the foodcourt in my mall. he said it was like drinking candy. hehe. afte that we walked around the mall looking at stuff we couldnt get, and i bought the Beast Wars dvd. its a great dvd, the quality of the video is better than the broadcast tv show!! Im such a fan boy. speaking of which, im making an anime costume in my costume class for a final project. its either going to be jedah from darstalker if i feel up to it, or duo from gundam wing endless waltz for an eaiser costume. we'll see. oh yeah, im also looking into a possible job opening in long beach for a puppet house doing movie animatronics/toy company, but im not definate on that yet. hopefully it pans out. and work was cool today, the new guy we hired was there, hes really quite but seems nice. and there were a lot of cool people that came in. and cute people to boot!! hehe anyways, i gotta go watch my beast wars dvd peace out!

2002-04-07T20:06:00.000-07:00

today has been pretty productive, if i do say so myself. I actually finished doing ALLL my laundry and cleaning the eye of the hurricane that was my room, and cleaned up my work area as best as possible. and i VACUUMED!!! hehe. theres no stopping me now world! do you hear ME!! anyhow, i should keep the ball rolling and finish all my projects. lest see, 1-giger desk 70% done, 2-power tool rendering, need to start, room line drawing, need to start, costume design paper, need to start, and study for midterm for costume design, last priotiy. im a pretty good bullshitter when it comes to test. oh yeah, let me tell you a bit thats going on in my life for a bit, for all those intersted. on friday, i went to work at 12, when i was really scheduled for 5. note also that friday was "punk rock prom" day at work we were supposed to dress up "punk formal". yes, i know its an oxymoron, like jumbo shrimp. anyhow, i was wearing my new boots i got for xmas, and my old trusty dkny suit from HS grad, a studded pyramid belt, and a pocket watch with a long chain. and i had my hair in a psuedo mohawk, that michelle and shane dubbed "rockabilly", which its not!! i felt pretty snazzy. but after standing in my boots after a coupla hours, my feet started to throb like no other...it was a pain in my feet that i havent felt since i got my clown camper shoes. damn my huge paddle feet!! damn them all to hell!! anyhow i endured this torture from 12 till 10 at night. i told myself i would neevr do that again, but ill probably forget after a month and try again, to see if I "broke them in" yet. kinda like after you have a really bad hangover, and you swear never to drink again, that is until that big party a month later, and the cycle continues....fashion over fuction i guess, hehe. at least we got some cool "prom pics" from work, where we posed as if there really was a prom at HT. i was in a lot of pictures, 'cause i was the only guy working that day, in other words, i was a manwhore for the day. well at least i was a fancy mawhore, that looked respectable, sorta. thats an extra 2 dolla charge than the normal rate. hehe ill try and link the pics when i get them emailed to me. oh yeah, i need to learn how to link stuff too...anyhoo, i should start my giger project now, before the downward spiral begins anew...i feel a nap coming on already!! ahhh!!!

2002-04-07T00:27:00.000-08:00

wow i havent written in here for a week!! ah well. any how whats going on, well im feeling really confused as of late. i dont know why. i feel like im on the cusp of some drastic change, but i need a some sort of missing catalyst. one change that im going thru that i dont like, but have had a habit of repeating, is my cycling of my friendships. i dont know why, but after a certain time, i feel the need to find new friends, and leve my old ones. i know, im smoking crack. but i have serious trust issues i think... but yeah, im tying to stop the cycle right now, because i really like the friends that i have now. but i cant get rid of the feeling of paranoia. hopefully i can change soon

2002-04-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

this weekend was a good one. hey guess what i got my money on fri., finally!! huzzah!! i was so happy that i went thru work actually smiling like i used to. On sat., i went to the less than jake/bad religion show. that was an interesting fiasco. well when i got off work, i tried to call everyone to see if they wanted to go to the show, but alas, no one was home, or no one had car. i finally got someone to go, phil, my old boss of all people. hes a pretty cool guy, if you look past his asshole exterior. anyways, we got there, and i went to will call to pick up the tix, but i forgot my wallet!! grr...so i called my sister, and after a long drawn out way of proving she worked at kroq, i go the tickets, woo hoo!! well, we went to the pat down line, i got thru ok, but phil had t take off his belt, because it was a studded belt. which was ridiculous, because i had on the same belt!! anyhoo, we went back th the car, and we took off our belts. what was funny was he wore pant that were like 5 sizes too big. his pants kept falling off and he rechecked that his boxers were buttoned so his crazy "machine" wouldnt make a scene. i couldnt stop laughing! well, we got back to the line, got patted down again, and went for the pocket check. these people are the gestapo i swear. no gum, no lighters, no bottle openers, no cigarettes, no pens, geez! well we went back to the car again to drop off the lighter ( it cost me 12 bucks, im not throwing it away!) and ciggarettes, and all other banned goods. i put my cell phone in too for good measure. by the time we actually got in, less than jake started playing, and they rocked!! they played some old songs, but a lot of new ones, which were really good. after that set, we went to the front and waited for bad religion. after about half an hour, they came on, and omg, they were fucking awesome. i havent had that much fun since god knows when. and today for easter, i hung out with the fam for my grandmas bday. i havent seen my sis or brother forever, it seems like. yanno, it really sucks when you realize that the relationship you have with your family will never be the same ideal it used to be. i wish i could talk to them more, or just be in thier presence. but with our busy lives, it just seems so hard. And i said the something today about it to tasha that was really sad, "you get used to it." i dont want to get used to it, but thats the only way to move on. ah well. i guess thats part of live as you get older. I can always cherrish the memories of how close we used to be.

2002-03-28T00:28:00.000-08:00

hey, i have the tracking thingy, andi just found out some one from the motherland(indonesia) is reading this. i hope its not a relative...hehe..eh....well whoever you are email me and tell me who you are at redsar@mac.com

2002-03-27T23:23:00.000-08:00

man, i havent felt this down for a long time...it just seems like everything is plotted against me. well i went to work, and it turned out that michelle did get the tickets, but jesus fucking christ, why did i have to say i could work?! argh....i know its all my fault, but still, i ve been planing this forever, and it didnt happen. all the things i wanted to do this break didnt happen. oh yeah, btw, apparently i have a cyst in my lip too. isnt that grand. well thats what i had checked yesterday at the doctors. i mean i thought it was cancer, thats why i didnt want to jinx it. its great its not cancer, but i still have to get it cut out. yay for me... i wanted to go out drinking today, but you know what, i cant cause im still broke! andim all outta cigs, and man did i need one today... i dont care what happens on fri, i need to do something, go somewhere, or my sanity will be at risk

2002-03-27T16:24:00.000-08:00

well my spring break has been pretty disappointing.... im such an idiot. well im not going to the no doubt show. i ha ve to work cause they called me when i was sleeping to come in today, and i said ok without thinking. no i have to do it...geeez!!!! im soch an idiot.......well at least i had fun at marios party last night. it was really what i needed. nelly and mario are like the two of the coolest cats around. anyways, i have to work on my projects, but maybe ill drink tonight to drown my sorrows...hehe

"HOIST BY OWN PITARD!!" -Kuno

2002-03-26T02:04:00.000-08:00

well today was horrendous...i woke up kinda late today at 10, and meandered ang got to school around 12. the busses were late picking me up, and they had a detour at my stop so i had to walk a bit to get to school, first argh....second, i check to see if my check was in, of course it wasnt. which meant i wasnt going to las vegas with laura...second argh...i had to walk back to the detoured bus stop, and didnt have time to get a check up at ths doctors, then waited another half hour for my bus, third argh...at work i got a probation for having a short drawer on fri., number four....after all this, i wanted to go out, and drink or watch a movie, or try to have some fun, but i didnt have any money, so i settled to stay at home and watch tv with my dad...five... the only saving grace to this day was talking to some friends online, that made me feel better. well, my vacation is turning out splendid....

"its gone from bad to good, and back to bad.." Enid- Ghost World

2002-03-25T02:35:00.000-08:00

blah, i should sleep, but ah well. hey i might be going to las vegas tomorrow!! yay!! i havent been there yet since ive turned 21, is that strange? on wed. i really really really really really hope michelle has the tickets!!! oh speaking of shows and tickets, i might be going to coachella music festival www.coachella.com. bjork is going to be there, so i have to make a dying effort to get there. yanno, lately ive been really wanting to get a vespa, like hardcore. well ive always wanted one, but shane gave me a postcard with the new vespas all lined up purdy, and i was drooling. i started teling my dad i wanted one again, and he didnt see to agitated this time around. he still said no, but he was joking around about it this time. i was thinking of just getting one next time i have money, and surprise my dad. i mean he would get mad, but he would let me keep it i think, no? give me your opinions on this matter to help me out. its my new burning passion to get one...www.piagiousa.com

"I'm a loner dottie, a rebel..." pee wee- Pee Wee's Big Adventure

2002-03-24T23:30:00.000-08:00

i feel really bad, 'cuz i made a quiz your friends thing, and i made it really hard with a lot of close answers. hehe ah well. dont sweat it. I wanted to go out, but im so broke, its scary.plus who want to go to hollywood right during the oscars, too hectic. Im going to school tomorrow, to see if i can get my money, and go to the doctors, theres something that i need to get checked out, i think im just being a hyperchondriac, but still i want to get it checked. ill talk about it after, i dont want to jinx it.

2002-03-22T13:03:00.000-08:00

you know ive noticed that a lot of people i know are getting sick, and that makes me start having these weird apocalyptic ideas, where evryone who is sick is marked to die, and everyone not is going to live. kinda like the stand. dunno why, i just have a wild imagination. oh btw, im on spring break now, yay! went drinking with jen, laura ben and rebecca yesterday at the yard house. laura is so fun to be around, shes the life of the party. today i work , and maybe go to release the bats. but i need to find a ride, and some money too maybe, hehe. any offers?

2002-03-21T00:46:00.000-08:00

i got my cell phone in the mail miraculously. i was asleep and the phone rang. me being half asleep, and i didnt need to get up till later that morning, i let the machine get it. then i hear on it that its the airborne express people, and they are going to send it back, and all that jazz. that woke me up really fast, but by the time i got to the phone, he was leaving!! well i sprinted to the front gate, and a saw him pulling away, when i screamed something that wasnt english, or any language for that matter. well to my relief he heard me, and made a u turn. he told me to come to the truck to pick up the package, but i couldnt leave the door, cause i didnt bring my keys and i would have been locked out! so he fianlly got out of the car with ithe package and i got my self phone back. hehe. art history was really interesting today. we were talking about a painting calledthe rape of Io. well the class started talking about it, and after awhile this one guy started to get really upset on why it was called rape of Io, but the depiction was one of passion and romance. well one thing led to another, then the guy got up and started to leave. he stood up in front of the class, and started to go on and on about how he was lebanese, an artist, sept. 11, and bla blah blah... dude, if you have an issue, theres a thing called office hours... anyways the clincher was when he said that he got a bad "vibe" from it. jesus fucking christ, its a ge art history class, with not a lot of analysis, get over your self. the only good thing was how our kooky old teacher tried to rationalize wit him. she was so cute and funny. im definately staying up in class fron now on. i went to fiancial aid office again, they denied me of my funds..again..grr... curse you gamblor!! i went to design building with my disappontment, and met up with kathleen and jen. apparently things went sour with that guy she was after. ah well, at least she tried!! we went to get some boba at the end of the parking lot, so we drove frove one side of it to the other, which was wierd. and in actuallity, the only one that got boba was kathleen, i got pudding milk tea, which is so hot right now, pudding milk tea. boba is so five minutes. hehe anyway it was a great day too, the su was shinnig, a cool breeze could be felt in the shade, i just wanted to lay out in front of the art building. at 4 i went to my perspective class, which didnt start as usual till 4:30. then westerkamp (my teacher) just said to turn in the work and to go home. yay!! hehe. so we decided to go to happy hour at aculpuco. joyce,april, rosalyn, charlie, and mark came. it was just what i needed. we told a funny stories and laughed and being just plain silly. the alcohol might have helped. hehe and now, one more class till spring break comences, in T-minus 28 hours, 15 min., 45 sec., 44, 43, 42.....

"ive got two boobs in my mouth!" Mark, after eating some of my Tit Tax candy from miyumi

2002-03-19T15:03:00.000-08:00

argh!! im getting really frustrated these past few days... I cant get my furniture mock up to look the way i had envisioned. I'll never be a famous designer... spring break is coming up for me next week, but im not sure if i can do anything at all. the blasted money barons at financial aid office is still keeping me waiting for the 3rd month now. man, i had so many places i wanted to go, first it was china, but then i find out i wasnt getting as much money as i thought, then new orleans, but then i was kept waiting for my money still, now my last ditch effort is san fran, but now i have a shitload of projects that need to get done. blah, another unevetful spring break. hopefully at least i will be able to catch a few shows. if Michelle come thru with the tickets, i might go see no doubt and the faint again with bev. it seems like eons since ive seen that girl. and next sat. michelle said that were going to the less than jake and bad religion show, which will be fun. ive seen those guys a billion times and they never disappoint. last saturday was the last day for costume crew, thank the lord. i finally have my life back!! well, the sad life that i had before it anyways. strangely, it was a good experiance for me tho. my favorite part about the whole thing was how EVERYONE would just break out in accents or voices, like that molly shannon skit on snl. no joke, it was almost non stop. they even got me doing it, but i think i lost it the talent already. my favorite one was the cranky old southern guy. hehe. i have to go to cotume lab in few minutes, which i actually like. even tho we havent done any real costumes yet. im even consiering minoring in costume design, i dont know if it available, but that would be a good feather for my cap. oh yeah, my hair is red now, no longer the blonde ambition, as doug put it. its blood red, mwa ha haha!! it looks really cool, but its fading already to maroonish. well, im going to go and try and find out how to put links and stuff on this dang thing so and go to class. dostdevanya

"hansel is so hot right now...hansel" Mugatu- Zoolander

2002-03-14T01:02:00.000-08:00

guess where i am? if you guessed school you win the grand prize! well, i went online to do some research for my furniture design, but i got sidetracked from people online..the internet is evil. anyways, ive been in an odd funk lately. i feel really un motivated, and its not condusive for my work. hopefully things will look up soon in my outlook. i think i need to talk to liz again, she seems to keep me stable for smome reason. jeez, its been so long since ive talked to her!! i miss her soo much. maybe ill see her for a few days on spring break, i dunno...actually, ive just decided thats what im going to do, ill call her tomorrow, and see whats the dilly. its funny that we are eachothers support group, even tho each of us leads such a chaotic life. liz, if your reading this, call me at home, cause my cell phones is gone. any ways, back to research!

quote of the day: "So help me I will reseqeunce your DNA!" -teacher from Time Machine

2002-03-13T00:28:00.000-08:00

oi, im at school right now, it sucks. im feel so disconnected right now cause i lost my cell phone on sunday, grr... im planning to go to a no doubt concert soon, when i finally get my money next week. i should be doing my work, but ah well... btw, eveyone should see shanes new short, its genious, hehe. i got ferklempt from watching it. wheres my copy shane?! grr...

2002-03-12T01:42:00.000-08:00

well, i've had a really lazy day today. i went costume class and all we did was burn fabric..which was...odd... its great learning experiance if you want to torch your actors with the right fabric. but after that, i slept for 2 hours in the lounge, i was out of countrol. and when i woke up, i had breakfast at subway, and met with miyumi and mark. mark got the 6 dollar burger at kay jays, and couldnt stop complaining about it, "i can't open the box, there mustard in it, they didnt wrap it right", he is ludicrous, cause he ate it all still. miyumi was sad cause she forgot to ge the cheese cake with the pretty red swirls in it. she works at coffee bean, and would rather get the cheesecake at kay jays for the swirls, another sucker for packaging. art class came and went, i actually stayed awake thru the whole thing! i went with joyce after to the bank cause she had to put money into her bank because she bought some shirts with some money she didnt have, and had to deposit the money she mysteriously aquired from her dad. we got back to school, and i had lunch with mario, steve, harrison and april. im such a glutton. well when we got back, apparently class was cancelled, so i ended up going to a bar on the pier with mark charley and miyumi for some expenisve beer, oishiii!!...we went to miyumis after we were all happy, but mark had to leave. her studio apartment is the bomb diggety, no doubt. she had so many cool toys!! theres this one panda toy that walks, has demonic glowing green eyes, and plays the chinese national anthem at the same time!! im going to steal it... we watched some surfing videos sideways on her sideways tv, which is a trip(they are surfing vertically!!) and went home shortly. for one of my most stressful weekdays, it was pleasantly the most chill so far. i hope i get to getting some work done soon. hehe

oh apparently, my brother and I should be made into plush dolls...

2002-03-10T22:33:00.000-08:00

i know im wierd, but i think lara flynn boyle is cute. something about those shoulderblades sticking out...hehe

2002-03-10T01:46:00.000-08:00

wow i haven't posted for more than a week!! anyways, a lot has happened since then. Well, my Birthday was probably the best birthday ive ever had! The faint kicks ass, evryone should hear them, you can download thier songs at www.thefaint.com. on sat., Shane gri La was the event. even tho i got there late cause of last minute scheduling at work (argh) i had a great time!! i saw so many people that i havent seen in literally years. i was really impressed at the organization, kudos to megan for the lighting, and shane for the graphics. and to terry for the copious amounts of alcohol, hehe... there was a freaking drink menu, it was grand. toward the end of the night, i got REAL belligerent, and i emabarrased my brother. everyone started calling me evil shane whinch was funny haha and funny wierd. I threatened to kick some guys ass too if he didnt stop annoying me, it was bad...sorry if your reading this!! i finally went to bed, and ended a great night. the rest of alst week was the usual schol stuff, still havent gone to my furniture class, for a 4 time, but i just got stuf from my dad to start working on it for reals. im starting to bond with people in my costume class, and crew.. strangely... theater folk are a bizzare bunch, but they are for the most part intelligent and entertaining. i hung out with jen and perla on mon., which was great. we havent done that since last semester. Jen made some teriyaki chicken, and rice for everyone to eat, yummy. shes trying to hook up eith this guy in the dept. and its really cool, 'cause shes finally taking action about it instead of just talking about it, i should take her cue, hehe. on wed., i hung out with mario and his friend springfield and his girlfriend. we saw the royal tennenbaums, it was really well done. that movie made me fianlly give gwenyth paltrow some respect as an actress. she looked really cute with the dark mascara and fur coat, too hehe. on thursday, i went to costume crew at elfriedes story, and after that, i went to the anime club meeting. i know, im a big fan boy, but oh well, ive accepted it. there are some pretty interesting characters there, but im still in shy mode with them. on friday, i did laundry for costume crew and after that i had lunch with my friend chuck from online, which was really cool, but weird too. ive never really met anyone from online, but ive been friends with him for a long time, but ive never met him, so i thought it would be good time to do so. i saw time machine too that day, and it was a good movie. different form the book, but a good movie none the less. after that i went to the fountain area to read lord of the rings, but i got caught up looking at the palm trees, buildings, and birds flying by and listening to emiliana torrini, that the sun was coming down before i knew it. then when all sunlight was gone, i walked to the edison and finished costume inventory, nothing special. and finally today, weee. after work, i went to lunch at sam woo again with my dad and my auntie lenny. i know i go there a lot, but it great cheap chinese food!! the cute chinese girl was there again and she gave me a lychee ice tea on the house, yum! we were suppose to go looking for new apt. today, but i REALLY needed to get some art supplies. we went to ASW first, then Pearl after, it was a big art fiasco. i felt bad for dragging my aunt to all these art supply stores, cause its not really her thing, but then she bought a brush at asw on sale to brush butter on her chicken with, which i thought was cute. i wanted to do a resin casting for my giger computer desk, but when i got to pearl to buy the resin, i realized that i really didnt know how to do it. so i decided to hold off on it until i did some more research and just got some more sculpey to sculpt the chair, cant wait to finish that dang thing. but ya after that i did crew, again. it was odd tho today everyone was so jovial. i later found out that half the cast was toasted because they went out drinking after a bad matinee, but at least they were more fun to be around. i brought my ibook and tryed to watch elizabeth on it , but the sound sucks on my ibook. but it was still cool. shane, be jealous, hehe. anyways, joan took me back to school after, so my dad could pick me up. on my way there, there was this big native american pow wow, which was really bizzare. i stopped for a bit and listened to thier chanting a nd the drum beats, it was cool. i had some fry bread too, which reminds me of some kind of indonesian food, it was really good. my dad picked me up shortly, and now im here, yay. well, that a recap of my week, im going to do some research on resin casting now, peace out!
word of the day: "whore!"

2002-02-28T10:30:00.000-08:00

yay, toaday is my birthday!! whoopee!! actually, its not that exciting yet, but hopefully, it will be, hehe. i cant believe i woke up today at 9, it was wierd. i only have one class, today, costume craft lab. reminds me, i need to get sat off for crew so i can go to the swank shane-gri-la party, i hope it can pull it off. My plans for today are to go to batavia cafe for some yummy bakmi (noodles), see the faint, and maybe a party after at shanes. i hope all will go to plan!! my dad has been acting kinda funny lately, like extra hostile. its because they just raised the rent on our place by 50 dollars!! yeah, so hes stressed out about the finances and stuff. i think ill give him some of my financial aid money to help him out a bit. oh yeah yesterday was marios birthday, i gave him a chinese lion/dog statue for his turtle aquarium,and those chinese juggling balls, where there are bell sounds when you use them. he seemd to like it. he got me a skull ashtray, which was really cool!! one of the best presents i have ever got from my friends. he know about my casual goth side, hehe. what sucked tho was his car got towed that morning, so i went with him to get it back, he paid 165 for it!! the strange thing was that the towing people we contacted were totally cool, and the lady at the place was really helpful, and perky. you would think that after coming into contact with a bunch of pissed off people that they would be all bitter. anyhoo, i have to go take a shower, and look for new apts., so we can live in a cheaper shithole.

peace out

2002-02-24T03:39:00.000-08:00

ahhh!! i just typed a shit liad of stuff, and it just got erased, argh.. we,, hers a synopsis of the long entry i just had erased. well i went to work and a felt really crappy again, people seem to be avoiding me!! it could be my paranoia issues going on but i dunno. actually im pretty sure it is that. i need some paxil, or zoloft or something... i went to work on costume crew right after, and got a ride from andrea. shes cool, although really shy and timid. but shes like me, a design major in costume. we always talk about how actors are funny. anyways, after a uneventful show, i went to sam woo with my dad and had some ramen..mmm...ramen.... we talked to the nice girl afterwards about china, becauese im thinking about going there soon. she was so cute with theway she awas tryong to explain all the cool parts of china. shes quickly turning into my new infatuation, hehe. after dinner we went home, and i took a quick cat nap. i opened a package from my grandma when i woke up, she gave me a wallet for my b-day, hoot hoot!! and just now, i got an email announcing a bday party for me shane, and terie, yay!! what a great way to end a day, hehe

you like me, you really like me!!

2002-02-22T03:07:00.000-08:00

well heres the start of my illustrious blog site!! i dont have much to say right now, 'cause its 3 in the morning and im quite tired, and i have to wake up at 6 to do laundry for the play im crewing for..argh...i didn't sign up to wash peoples chonies when i registered for costume design....anyhoo, I'll probably post again some time tomorrow till then, im outie 5000

"think outside the bun.."